I Hate It!

Sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk to. I keep so many things to myself. This is probably the worst way to open up and express myself. Yet I can't say much. I just don't know anymore. I always try to stay positive but I'm only human. So many questions... I guess this is why I always talk to GOD. Because the reality is that I stand alone in my own shadow. How can I be surrounded by people and still feel like I'm alone? How does this happen. I wear a smile on my face but no one looks at my eyes. My eyes tell a very different story. But no one takes the time to see the tears I hold in silence. It's sad to know that something is over and you are just waiting for the world to catch up. How I wish I had someone to talk to that truly understood me. I just keep moving forward. But after these tears dry up I fear feeling num. I rather feel pain than nothing at all. At least I know that I am still alive. I know these words are confusing but like I said before... I just can't say much.